"I want to know if you're letting me in or letting me go- don't lie..."

I really hate doing things I am not good at. It stresses me out. Example: today, I had to put together a simple 60 piece puzzle for Sunday School. This wasn't exactly a difficult puzzle, but I am TERRIBLE at puzzles. I don't have good spatial cognizance. So as I am standing in the truck, struggling to put this stupid Tinkerbell puzzle together, I found myself becoming overly stressed. It was a puzzle. Come on. How hard can it be? No. Because I wasn't having immediate success, my head started hurting. I became frustrated and annoyed. "I hate Tinkerbell. She is so stupid. Who decided that she should be popular, anyway?" were the thoughts running through my head. I finally got it finished in a rather embarrassing amount of time.

I think I have never gotten into playing sports because it doesn't come naturally to me. "You want me to make this ball go where? With a certain motion? Heck no." I love to excel, but I can't excel at everything. It is a legitimate struggle. I want to be the best, and I can't always be. It is something I am dealing with right now.

I am a rare breed in my group of old friends. Single. Most of the people I hung out with back home are either married, engaged, or childrened. I am quite happy as a single man. Life is good. However, It does make going back to El Paso feel strange. I am now the 17th wheel.

17. That is a good prime number. I have previously expressed my affinity for prime numbers. That hasn't changed. I wish I could spread the cheer that a good prime number gives me.

Speaking of cheer, I am having a really difficult time not listening to Christmas Music. I specifically want to hear "Marshmallow World" by Dean Martin. I LOVE Christmas. I love decorating, music, gifts, lights, spending time with family... The list goes on forever. I can't wait for the day after Thanksgiving when I can put up all my decorations. It's gonna be Christmassy then a mug.

Random thought for the day: In my opinion the most useful line from Aladdin: "The finest merchandise this side of the river Jordan..." I cannot even begin to tell you how many times I have added "this side of the river Jordan" to the end of a phrase describing something as the most abundant/best/silliest, etc. Thank you Disney!